Monday, November 25, 2002  

woohoo! no schooolll!!! =)

NOOOOOOOOO twin is leaving!! =( if your reading this. have funn!! get pritty shoes. hehe

:thots:

seems lyk more ppl are having problems than i thot. juss remember ppl, im always here to tok to you about it. unless it's about me. lol otherwise, tok to a counselor or a psychiatrist, which ever helps better. hehe. but really, im always open for anything discussion. im not a counselor or anything, but i think im pritty good at understanding this stuff. =D

putting up wif life is so hard. good to kno God won't give you more than you can handle. -sigh- still a lil upset tho. i've bin thinking... long.. hard... about... something... actually it's sumone. -sigh- it's all so confusing. you kno the story we read in english about that grocery guy and the red-head gurl? i kinda feel lyk that. you want to do sumthing, but you ... just don't. it's lyk.. a fear. ..

:fears:

must be the fear of... rejection... wow. ok, juss realized that. it really is. .. how weird. but i dun want it to be lyk that... the more i think of this, i stink deeper and deeper into it... sooner or later it'll drown me... so... i need to get my mind off it. but ... everything i sey... or do.. reminds me of it... it's not a bad thing, wenever i think of it, im happy. but wen i realize wut it can lead to... im not as happy. im more scared... to make the wrong choice. so many roads, turns, and i haven't been reading my guide book. ... dragging in devos. -sigh-

:upside:

but.. i have a devo buddy now! lol. we ken keep each other accountable. =)

Sometimes i feel Grace in the middle of the nite
in the cool of a shade in the bright sunlite
Sometimes i feel God in the midst of a show
as the palm trees sway in an afterglow

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