Monday, November 25, 2002  

woohoo. violin lessons in an hour =/ haven't practiced much...

lalala. so bord. nutin to doooo... and still thinking bout that thing... -sigh- HEYY i tried out the hades cup in kh. i thot you had to go through all 49 seeds w/o stop, but u ken start at the 10s.. lyk 50, 40.. hehe. had to try TWICE to beat the stupid cerebrus. evil three headed dogs... but, i killed him!! =D hehe. i tried battling sephroth too... for those of you who kno this game, i was at level... 53. lol. so i got into the platnium match, sephroth beamed down in all his glory, hit me juss once with his super long sword, and i died. LOL remind neva to try that agen...

:thots:
sorta hungry...

kinda noticed, that everytime i think about it (it being the thing that has bin bothering me), my stomach gets all queezy. lyk b4 all region, or a performance... it feels lyk.. empty yet surging with an energy that makes you... nervous. hehe. weird. the more i think about it, i still regret it, but i think it's better this way. -sigh- pray for me ppl...

:fears:
i dun wanna think about this too much. it's gonna overthrow me. lyk darkness in the kh game. hehe yea it's kinda a corny annalogy, but it makes sense. you may think it will help you become more powerful or greater (more lyk in a sense of confidence), but it will consume you if u dwell in it too much and too long... but, in that moment of deep darkness, there's always a litto light. all you need to do i go towards it instead of going even deeper into the darkness... ... sorry if that didn't make sense... i don't seem to be making much of any sense anymore... in anything... bleh

:anyways:
ALMOST DONE WIF KH! lol. i probably sound skitso huh? all sad and depressed then im all... normalish agen. but im never normal. lol.

Thrive

Down here in the valley
Every shadow you see
Has its own story
Down here in the valley
Every puddle of mud
Comes from tears and blood
And it's so hard just to get warm
That the chill turns into despair

Will you lift me up with tender care?
Will you wash me clean in the palm of your hands?
Will you hold me close so I can thrive?
When you touch me, that's when I know I'm alive

Down here in the valley
Nothing's able to grow
'Cause the light's too low
Folks spend their days
Digging 'round for diamonds and gold
'Til they just get old
And they don't know anything else
They don't know they're breathing bad air
But I'm tired of living like this
And my soul cries out, "If you're there..."

Call me up to your side
Draw me up to your light
Let it blind me
Lord, refine me
Refine me out of my mind

   | | theSniki | 11:39 AM | |