yes im bak in that stage... sadness... lostfulness...
what did i ever do to them?? i don't even know them...
:thots:
i thot my problem in confrontation was bad, but having a feeling of being.. hated is worse.... i don't believe in hating. i try not to dislike. but wen i am dislike or even hated, i wonder what i did. am i that bad a person? am i so... inconsiderate w/o knowing it? its one thing to think of yourself as a nice person, but wen sumone else seys you're a mean, horrible person... it really... hurts...
i kno i cry easily. i kno i do. i admit it. but now.. i have to kno not to... and... i don't think i can do it...
:fears:
am i a bad person?
i try really hard to be nice. to be kind. to be loved.
but
it seems lyk all that effort was taken
and ripped into shreds...
and in return. bad things happen to me
i think i kno why all this stuff is happening to me... ... -sigh-
