Saturday, May 28, 2005  

"for i know the plans i have for you, plans to prosper you and not to harm you. plans to give you hope and a future."
- Jeremiah 30.6

well im still.. quite busy.. i dont think i'll have much of a down time until middle of june... and i shall get Baralai to level 90!!!! XD i must. sigh so many things i have to do this summer T_T

first of all, finish all the anime i've missed... naruto, bleach, tsubasa, finish up beck... and i need to read the naruto and bleach mangas... >_> sigh.

then there's sitely stuff. first and formost.. fore.. most.. four most?... 4most, i MUST redo this blog. its getting REALLY annoying and tacky. must. re.do. =P it'll be jei-san and baralai as chibi, drinking tea. =3 super kute. and i have 2 more fanlistings coming.. T_T obsession. i really should stop. at. 15. haha. *yawn* and i think i have a few requests for xanga/ blog layouts... but.. i dont like xanga. T_T i duno how it works..... sigh.

tomorrow's gonna be a busy busy stressful day. but im sure it'll work out. like this weekend. hehehe

so on friday, i took stacy and paul out and around. good lord-poring. for EVERYONE out there, dont go shopping with paul over a long period of time. he gets really bored easily T_T yea that sucked. and then we went into mad rush to find the original score for my ensemble. i was freaking out.. we went all over the place to look for it (i wont be too specific) but basically we couldn't find it. so i was telling myself... there's no way out of this. in the car, i was telling stacy and paul how i felt about asking God for help... like sometimes i feel its weird asking him to help me with something that wont glorify him at all like a good grade or playing violin well... i mean those are completely selfish reasons to ask for help. so i was a little hesitant to bother God. but when i got home and kept searching for the stupid yellow book, i realized.. it was not here. T_T and i started praying that God would either find another way to make this work, or help me get through the shame of being an irressponsibly bad kid. right when i prayed that, the phone rang and mr. isadore tells me he has an extra copy T_T whew.

as some know.. getting a one for ensemble is rather difficult... so our ensemble decided to shoot for a 2! "aim low, fly high" a wise friend once told me. . . . so we kind of practiced early friday morning and a 45 minute run through type thing before the actual performance. as we sat on that giant couch, once again, i just asked God to calm us so we can play to our best, the way performing should be and not be burdened by pressures to do perfect. i was... kind of unsure if i should have prayed out loud with the group... but oh well time was up and we went it. our judge's name was "eri lam" so we're like. ohh azn man. >_> yea more like azn woman. so we played.. she seemed bored. but i told natalie, david, and eunice to do this fake communication thing. all good ensembles have good entrances and endings, why? cuz they look at each other! now.. we're no professionals, but we can at least pretend we are. hahahah so we just randomly sway and look at each other all over the whole time =P at the end, i asked her "are you cantonese?" cuz of the lam last name... haha she's actually a korean lady XD so cool. i wanna learn korean one day...

ahem. well anyway... before we left to travel many a mile to lunch, david called and told me and eunice "WE GOT A ONE" i was like.. wut the crap. i dont believe. so i ran down 7 flights of stairs and sure enough.. mrs lam gave us a one. XD

as we walked the street of... something... its where all the food is.. ... there was this homeless man sitting there... and.. yes i felt like i should help, but giving money may not be a good idea.. so we kept walking. we went to jamba juice, then chipotle for lunch. dude chipotle taco things are sooooooo freaking big. and good =X but i couldn't finish it. so david was like why dont we cut off the part we bit off of and give it to the homeless dude. XD so we did.

basically... to me it felt like that was my way of saying thank you to God for helping me out this weekend. at first i felt like it was all a big selfish thing, but... God found a way for me to return the goodness He first gave me. ^ ^ -V so.. thats my.. all-state adventure? oh yea. them squirrels at UT are agressive. i made a loud noise to scare one so it'd run up a tree reaaalll fast. but instead, it stopped halfway and lunged towards me x.O michael ngai threw a rock at one, and the squirrel started running towards him. x.X scary UT squirrels. beware or bring a tranquilizer.

boing. boing. boing. ok i should.. sleep or something.

   | | theSniki | 11:37 PM | |