Friday, February 07, 2003  

*yawn*

brrr...

yea, i guess i'll admit it...
but i dun wanna call it confusion... cuz... its more of a doubt. yea... doubt...
weird word...
drives us away from hope.. and trust.
it comes nd goes... but overall..
its there...

im treating it.. lyk a box...
its ova there... i haven't thrown it away...
but... im ignoring it. i don't want to be near it.
other people are lyk, shoving it into my face, encouraging me...
but i dun want it.
i'd throw it away...
but, .. its still.. ova there...

i dun think ima let go of this...
i keep seying i will, nd i have.
but really, i haven't it.

... its still ova there...

i wanna burn it. but i can't...
i want to throw it away and neva think of it agen...
but its still.. right there...

-sigh-
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yea well anyways, went to coco's cafe, nd i saw mr. isadore! lol funny...

o wait, one more thing.
i was thinking nd everything, nd it seems i have a lot of anger in me... =/
soooo if i let it out on anyone... uh.. sorry. heh.
anger is sumthing u gotta let out. you can't hide it. its lyk a big red stain on white pants (coff paul coff)
yea, so u either let is out or talk it out. writing it out helps me.
but don't suck it in, cuz it's not gonna work... hehe yea ok...

gawd, tennis tryouts cuming... 6 spots... more than 6 ppl trying out...
I'M DOOMEEEDDDD =(
aiya, if any of u good tennis peeps gonna play, call me!!! i need to practice... -shiver-

hehe wow, this a long blog entry. yea. lemme find a weirdo song to add to it...

Flood | Jars of Clay

Rain rain on my face
It hasn't stopped raining for days
My world is a flood
Slowly I become one with the mud

But if I can't swim after forty days
And my mind is crushed by the crashing waves
Lift me up so high that I cannot fall
Lift me up,
Lift me up - When I'm falling
Lift me up - I'm weak and I'm dying
Lift me up - I need you to hold me
Lift me up - Keep me from drowning again

Down pour on my soul
Splashing in the ocean I'm losing control
Dark sky all around
I can't feel my feet touching the ground

But if I can't swim after forty days
And my mind is crushed by the crashing waves
Lift me up so high that I cannot fall
Lift me up,
Lift me up - When I'm falling
Lift me up - I'm weak and I'm dying
Lift me up - I need you to hold me
Lift me up - Keep me from drowning again

Calm the storms that drench my eyes
Dry the streams still flowing
Cast down all the waves of sin
And guilt that overthrow me



yUp swirling whirlpools... damp caves.. *drip* .. *drip* ...
*dmom kicks*
AAHHHH!!!!
lol, good times.. good times...

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